Tuesday, January 17, 2012

The Whirlwind Begins

I am still in the whirlwind and am not quite sure how to feel about all of this. I just wish I had some answers and a plan or timeline. ANYTHING. All I can think about is my sweet Camilla. I watch her sleep and know that I will do whatever I need to in order to be here for her. I won’t miss out on seeing her grow up. It’s not an option. She is my everything.

Today I have come to terms with the fact that what I am facing is cancer. The only thing I can do now is lean on my family and friends, put myself in a positive mindset, hope that this is treatable and get ready to fight like hell for my life.

My friend Jen explained that the best way to approach this is to think about someone coming into your home and threatening to take your life. The life you have built with an amazing man and an angelic daughter. Today I am ready. Bring it.

I have a breast MRI scheduled for Thursday and should get my pathology report tomorrow. I am trying to be patient, but if you know me, you know it’s not a strength of mine. Oh Lord, help me slow down and learn to be patient.

1 comment:

  1. Stay strong Jen! I am sure you will have ups an downs, but like you said there is no choice in getting through this...YOU WILL you have Camilla and a family that will be there for you no matter what.